These are my best friends. I don't know what I would ever do without them.
Dear Will Tang, I love you. We hit off our friendship with a 5 am baseball game drinking imaginary soda and watching the sun rise together. Gahd we're romantic. I seriously can tell you anything at all and you're always honest with your opinion which I love. We can always carry a continuous conversation that flows on and on. I've shared good laughs with you about the most random things and sometimes about things that aren't so random. You're reliable, I know you're always be there when I need you and that I can count on you no matter what. We talk about girls together, stargaze on beautiful nights, wrestle, play and fight (i win) and basically you're the older brother I never had.
Dear Kaitna,: We've had our one rough patch where I wasn't there for you but I can honestly say that you have always been there for me. We can talk about anything and we can talk forever and you're always fun to be around and you (usually) support me in whatever i do hahahah. I feel super comfortable around you and I can totally be myself and it's so liberating. You're super encouraging and you're honestly one of the kindest and most popular people I know. Even though you're a sasshole and pretends to hate me sometimes I love her all the same.
Dear Krista: You're a fun and funny one. I always thought it was really easy to talk to you and that it was always fun and easy for me to be around you but I think our heart to heart that one night at j in the b really strengthened our friendship. We totally spilled our guts about everything and from then on we've only grown closer. You put up with all of my jokes and you even laugh at some of them. hahah actually that goes for everyone here. You introduce me to great music and you're patient with my guitar learning (even though i just go GOD I HATE GUITAR ITS SO HARD). hahaha you always listen to what I have to say and give me advice and I love you for that.
Dear Jason: When I first met you I thought you hated me. You still pretend like you do alot. Even though you always say fuck you and tell me to suck your dick you're still a bro to me. I like that we can joke around about random stuff and basically talk about nothing at all but we can also put our serious pants on and talk about what really matters. usually in your car at night over wingstop. You're one of those people who is honest through and through to the point of being blunt and rude. But because of that I trust your judgement no matter what. I feel like you've rubbed off on me and I know you'll be very happy about that. You smell like baby powder and even though constantly call me corny I know you secretly dig my jokes and romantic lines. love you big fella.
Dear Jon: When I first met you I thought you hated me too hahahhaaha. I really got to know you on the LA trip and we had a great bonding experience hahahahha then I learned we were pretty figgin similar and we've hung out almost every day this summer. I love your honestly and bluntness. You're not gonna sugarcoat something for me or anyone else and so i value your opinion. It's always fun to hang out with you cus I always feel like I have stuff to say to you. Specially when I throw up a 40 with Melo.
Dear Olivia: Where do I start? You've been my best friend forever. It all started back in the 3rd grade at xin wang ai. Actually back then you were NOT my best friend. You were the cause of me losing 2 hard earned stickers. What an upsetting day. Fastfoward 7 years and we're the best of friends. We've definitely been through alot together. You've gotten pretty figgin mad at me but I have yet to get really really mad at you. I guess we'll cross that bridge when we meet it. But anyways you are the only person that isn't in choir (that you always remind me whenever I tell you this) that has ever seen me cry. And it's been twice. Wow. You are always always always there for me no matter what and you always listen to me and never fail to cheer me up. (there, there.) I love all the random adventures we go on and all of our spontaneous activities. You know me so well inside and out that you can always tell what's on my mind or if I'm upset or what not. You make me laugh even though half the time you're not even trying to (smashh...into...you...). I always enjoy spending time with you and i do actually miss you when we're not hanging out hahaha. (olivia: he's probably like tim, he hates me.) It's easy for me to talk to you and I can talk to you about literally everything. You always support me and encourage me. And I will always always always be here for you big sis (:
Friday, July 16, 2010
Letters
Stole this from Joyee's blog
http://omnistrain.tumblr.com/page/2
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favourite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
So basically I guess you write a letter to each of these people erryday. I'm excited. I feel like it'll really make me think and it'll be really cleansing and it'll also force me to blog erry day haha good stuff.
http://omnistrain.tumblr.com/page/2
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favourite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
So basically I guess you write a letter to each of these people erryday. I'm excited. I feel like it'll really make me think and it'll be really cleansing and it'll also force me to blog erry day haha good stuff.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Don't Worry, Be Happy
This morning me and a good friend had a good chat about college. It's kinda early to be talking about it I guess. Not really though if we think about it, all yall out there that are class of 2012. I mean think about it, how fast did freshman and sophomore year pass us? Before we know it it'll be our turn to stress about college apps and our futures. And it's a scary thought, not gonna lie.
My friend was telling me about how she was stressing like crazy about school and SATs and how she thought she was never going to go to college. And listening to her talk, in my head I was thinking. Dude. I should be seriously freaked out and stressed and scared too. But I'm not. What's wrong with me? I really don't know why I have this cool about school. It's a freakin big deal. This is how I explained it to her and I guess this is just what I think about the whole deal without even really consciously trying to. I basically told her that if you study hard and work hard at everything you do and give it everything you have to offer, all you can really do is sit back and let what happens happens. So if you happen to not get into the school you wanted to then what happens happens. But you know that you gave it your all and there was nothing else you could have possibly done to increase your chances. I know how cliche`d and corny I sound haha. I feel like my dad. But there's no point in stressing out about something. That takes a ton of energy. And there are so many more productive things you could be doing with that energy.
Also I was thinking about how alot of people say things like god im never gonna get into college. Or basically they beat themselves up alot. I don't usually let it bother me when people say things like that but in the back of my mind it annoys me. It doesn't annoy me because it's obnoxious but I just feel like it's so unnecessary. Let me explain. We're all basically trying for the same thing. Be successful. Be happy. All that good stuff. And we all have people or organizations or failures and what not that will try to stop us from achieving our goals. They'll try as hard as they can to put us down and make us give up. Going back to the people who say they won't go to college, why would you ever say that about yourself? There are plenty of SAT counselors, college administration officers, and even other parents who I'm sure would be more than happy to tell that to you. Why add to that number? You shouldn't ever discourage yourself. That's what other people are for.
I really believe in never putting myself down. I think if you're good at something, you should be loud and proud. I guess people would call it cocky in some circumstances. I really try not to come across like that but you gotta live with some confidence. Anyways back to the whole college thing. All yall out there worrying about college, please try not to worry so hard about it all. It might seem like, in our high school bubble, that school and SATs are gonna make or break you for the rest of your life, but honestly it's not. The world is so much bigger than grades and scores. I'm not trying to say blow off school haha I'm not saying that at all. I'm just trying to say take a step back, chill out, relax a little bit and then get back into it. And before you know it, we'll all be on our way.
My friend was telling me about how she was stressing like crazy about school and SATs and how she thought she was never going to go to college. And listening to her talk, in my head I was thinking. Dude. I should be seriously freaked out and stressed and scared too. But I'm not. What's wrong with me? I really don't know why I have this cool about school. It's a freakin big deal. This is how I explained it to her and I guess this is just what I think about the whole deal without even really consciously trying to. I basically told her that if you study hard and work hard at everything you do and give it everything you have to offer, all you can really do is sit back and let what happens happens. So if you happen to not get into the school you wanted to then what happens happens. But you know that you gave it your all and there was nothing else you could have possibly done to increase your chances. I know how cliche`d and corny I sound haha. I feel like my dad. But there's no point in stressing out about something. That takes a ton of energy. And there are so many more productive things you could be doing with that energy.
Also I was thinking about how alot of people say things like god im never gonna get into college. Or basically they beat themselves up alot. I don't usually let it bother me when people say things like that but in the back of my mind it annoys me. It doesn't annoy me because it's obnoxious but I just feel like it's so unnecessary. Let me explain. We're all basically trying for the same thing. Be successful. Be happy. All that good stuff. And we all have people or organizations or failures and what not that will try to stop us from achieving our goals. They'll try as hard as they can to put us down and make us give up. Going back to the people who say they won't go to college, why would you ever say that about yourself? There are plenty of SAT counselors, college administration officers, and even other parents who I'm sure would be more than happy to tell that to you. Why add to that number? You shouldn't ever discourage yourself. That's what other people are for.
I really believe in never putting myself down. I think if you're good at something, you should be loud and proud. I guess people would call it cocky in some circumstances. I really try not to come across like that but you gotta live with some confidence. Anyways back to the whole college thing. All yall out there worrying about college, please try not to worry so hard about it all. It might seem like, in our high school bubble, that school and SATs are gonna make or break you for the rest of your life, but honestly it's not. The world is so much bigger than grades and scores. I'm not trying to say blow off school haha I'm not saying that at all. I'm just trying to say take a step back, chill out, relax a little bit and then get back into it. And before you know it, we'll all be on our way.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Late Nights
It's almost 2:30, just up talkin to Robin in China (: I miss her. Anyways. I was thinkin. Maybe it's just me. Aren't people alot more open to talk about whatever the later it is at night? Iono maybe it is just me. But I remember alot of my deep personal conversations with people where they spill their guts about anything and everything and don't hold anything back are usually really late at night either at some camp lying next to each other in the pitch dark whispering or late night phone dates lying in bed half asleep and not even remembering half of the conversation the next day. But I've always wondered why people are so open at night. At night they all just lay everything out and hold nothing back. What drives people so be so straightforward, trusting, and honest at night that doesn't propel them in broad daylight? It'd be cool if someone could fill me in on what they think. I'm really interested in what they think! One of my best friends has an opinion though. "DID YOU KNOW THAT WHEN YOURE REALLY TIRED..YOUR BRAIN IS EXACTLY LIKE WHEN YOURE DRUNK...??" - Olivia Chock
Monday, July 12, 2010
Comeback
Ok I promise to myself and all of yall that from here on out I will blog at least once a week. When I was thinking about it I was thinking. Ok I'll promise myself every day. But I know that I wouldn't be able to keep that promise that to myself so I'm going for something reasonable. I'll just have to exceed my own expectations. What's been going on with me since the last time i blogged? A ton.
I'm a junior year now. Finally an upperclassman. I'm looking forward to all the word cus even though everyone says it's so much work and stressful and stuff, which I definitely believe, I'm looking forward to really being tested and stressed you know? Sounds strange but I feel like this will really show myself what kind of person I am. Do I run from my problems or do I stick with it and work hard to deal with them? We'll see. I also feel like this coming year is gonna help me define my true friends. Just a hunch. I've started doing SAT stuff cus my dad wants me to. Just printed out a list of 723 SAT words. The party's getting started. Memorized 20 hahaha only 703 to go. wooopeee.
Alot's changed with my perspective since the last time I wrote. Weird thing is everytime you write you act like you're super wise and super smart and know eveyrthing now. But then every time you write again a couple weeks later you're like oh wow my eyes have really been opened and I have this new perspective blah blah. Proves we're always learning and growing. I used to wish that I would be grown up and developed and sophisticated and smart and that would be the end of that. But I thought about it and yaknow how boring would it be to have nothing to strive for? Anyways I came back from a long trip in Miami and on a cruise to the Bahamas. This one night I was missssin my girl really badly so I spontaneously decided to text everybody on my contacts list with a significant other for the reasons of love/like. And to my surprise I got a bunch of replies, even from the ones I didn't know that well. It was pretty cool and inspiring and heart warming to see all the responses. I still have all of them on my phone, locked them. But reading all of them made me really happy cus I could completely relate to all of them.
The biggest thing that hit was that no matter how different we all are, we all love the same! (:. It was like that thing that was going on on facebook where people said nice things about each other when you liked their status only different because it was heartwarming all the same. It gets me wondering, when someone really asks. or actually. when someone's really tired haha. I feel like when you're really tired youre super open and willing to talk about things you dont normally talk about and i guess you're just too tired to put up a front and hide anything from anybody yaknow? But anyways when even from the most unlikely people you get this outpour of love when you just ask to talk about it. It's like finding 20 bucks in the back pocket of the jeans you just washed.
I'm a junior year now. Finally an upperclassman. I'm looking forward to all the word cus even though everyone says it's so much work and stressful and stuff, which I definitely believe, I'm looking forward to really being tested and stressed you know? Sounds strange but I feel like this will really show myself what kind of person I am. Do I run from my problems or do I stick with it and work hard to deal with them? We'll see. I also feel like this coming year is gonna help me define my true friends. Just a hunch. I've started doing SAT stuff cus my dad wants me to. Just printed out a list of 723 SAT words. The party's getting started. Memorized 20 hahaha only 703 to go. wooopeee.
Alot's changed with my perspective since the last time I wrote. Weird thing is everytime you write you act like you're super wise and super smart and know eveyrthing now. But then every time you write again a couple weeks later you're like oh wow my eyes have really been opened and I have this new perspective blah blah. Proves we're always learning and growing. I used to wish that I would be grown up and developed and sophisticated and smart and that would be the end of that. But I thought about it and yaknow how boring would it be to have nothing to strive for? Anyways I came back from a long trip in Miami and on a cruise to the Bahamas. This one night I was missssin my girl really badly so I spontaneously decided to text everybody on my contacts list with a significant other for the reasons of love/like. And to my surprise I got a bunch of replies, even from the ones I didn't know that well. It was pretty cool and inspiring and heart warming to see all the responses. I still have all of them on my phone, locked them. But reading all of them made me really happy cus I could completely relate to all of them.
The biggest thing that hit was that no matter how different we all are, we all love the same! (:. It was like that thing that was going on on facebook where people said nice things about each other when you liked their status only different because it was heartwarming all the same. It gets me wondering, when someone really asks. or actually. when someone's really tired haha. I feel like when you're really tired youre super open and willing to talk about things you dont normally talk about and i guess you're just too tired to put up a front and hide anything from anybody yaknow? But anyways when even from the most unlikely people you get this outpour of love when you just ask to talk about it. It's like finding 20 bucks in the back pocket of the jeans you just washed.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Been a While II.
Ya it's been a while again. When I started this I definitely told myself that I was gonna update every day. I was goin real strong but since then I kinda lost steam. Just not much to talk about yaknow? What's been goin on with me? During spring break the music department at school went to LA for a mini tour. It was pretty fun, not all it was hyped up to be though. That's alright it was still a good time. I met this guy from another school that looked like T-Pain. I already forgot what his name was but I remember I was talking to him and he was telling me how our violin section of our orchestra was bigger than their entire orchestra. I was like dang dude. We definitely are really lucky and fortunate to be in the situation that we're in (saratogans) It also helped me realize that despite our differences. Me and T-Pain were pretty similar. He was a really nice guy who loved music just like me. We could relate easily despite our racial and situational differences. That's pretty all I wanted to write this blog post for actually. Just wanted to get that off my mind and on the internet. I'll probably write again later. Gotta go look for my Swag
Monday, March 29, 2010
#71. The Comeback
Ok it's been forever since I wrote. Even more forever than last time. I'm not sure I remember how to do this anymore so I'm gonna be all over the place. I promised a friend I'd do this though so here we go. From the last time I blogged until now it's been pretty hectic. I've been pretty busy since baseball season started since I don't get home until 6:30 and I definitely don't start my homework until 9. Gettin into some prettttttty bad habits. I just ate 30 cuties. I'm pretty sure I'm melting from the outside in. I noticed that I open fruits in weird ways. I'll try to open a cutie in one piece. I open bananas the way monkeys do, from the back. Wow I hope this isn't boring for you haha I feel like it would be.
Ok also something I've been wanting to talk about since I heard about it is Challenge Day at our school. So I was a fool and didn't sign up for it but I heard it was amazing. Basically the gist (did I spell that right?) is you get together with everyone else who signed up or who was picked and basically you tell each other your hardships and cry together and love each other and feel good and stuff. And it's one of those things where afterwards you feel all lovey dovey and you love everyone and you wanna be an amazing peron. But the thing that I wonder is why we can't be like that all of the time? And a while after the effects definitely wear off. Basically though, why does it take an organized event for people to realize that they care about each other and love each other? As well as that other people are amazing too? We should look for these things in other people every day and devote ourselves to being loving people. It's like that BEP song. Where's the love? I dunnooo. So catchy.
Another thing. Been frustrated kinda lately about some decisions. And basically I learned something. A wise friend told me that I can't always make my decisions based on what makes other people happy, and that sometimes I have to decide on what makes me happy. Now that I think about it, I've always strived to try to make others happy, sometimes at my own expense. But that's living for others, and not myself, and sometimes I'd be the one coming away feeling unsatisfied. I'm going to be more conscious in the future to not only make others happy but myself as well. Not in a selfish way, but you can only share happiness with other people when you yourself are happy, when you have happiness to share. Ok that is all, but here's a quote that has become one of my favorites.
"You can turn the sun off, but I'm stil gonna shine"
-Jason Mraz
Ok also something I've been wanting to talk about since I heard about it is Challenge Day at our school. So I was a fool and didn't sign up for it but I heard it was amazing. Basically the gist (did I spell that right?) is you get together with everyone else who signed up or who was picked and basically you tell each other your hardships and cry together and love each other and feel good and stuff. And it's one of those things where afterwards you feel all lovey dovey and you love everyone and you wanna be an amazing peron. But the thing that I wonder is why we can't be like that all of the time? And a while after the effects definitely wear off. Basically though, why does it take an organized event for people to realize that they care about each other and love each other? As well as that other people are amazing too? We should look for these things in other people every day and devote ourselves to being loving people. It's like that BEP song. Where's the love? I dunnooo. So catchy.
Another thing. Been frustrated kinda lately about some decisions. And basically I learned something. A wise friend told me that I can't always make my decisions based on what makes other people happy, and that sometimes I have to decide on what makes me happy. Now that I think about it, I've always strived to try to make others happy, sometimes at my own expense. But that's living for others, and not myself, and sometimes I'd be the one coming away feeling unsatisfied. I'm going to be more conscious in the future to not only make others happy but myself as well. Not in a selfish way, but you can only share happiness with other people when you yourself are happy, when you have happiness to share. Ok that is all, but here's a quote that has become one of my favorites.
"You can turn the sun off, but I'm stil gonna shine"
-Jason Mraz
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