Worth it(?)

Doing a pretty good job of keeping this up, if I do say so myself. I made a pledge to myself to get in bed by 11 every single night from now on so I gotta make this kind of brief.

I'll be the first one to admit that I'm not a funny person haha. But I was thinking about how to be funny and make other people laugh sometimes people will make fun of other people in a way that sometimes isn't always necessarily funny or taken as a joke to that specific person. I'm definitely not one who's never made a joke like that. To be honest it feels great to make other people laugh. Even if it's at someone else's expense. But I was wondering is it really worth it?

We all know how it feels to be on the butt end of a joke like that. Even if it's hilarious and it makes everyone laugh really hard it doesn't make you feel good at all. You definitely feel really left out and put down. On the other side, sure it might make you feel like a funny person and feel good about yourself for a while cus you made a funny joke about someone but at their expense, putting them down?

I definitely feel like I sound like that guy that tries to defend someone and ruin the joke or somebody's mom. Anyways I just don't feel like its right. That was basically the point. Good night.

Woops.

Haven't done this in hella days. I feel like I've posted that on this blog so many times. Anyways. I know I say this every single time I write a blog post. literally. But it blows my mind every single time. No matter how old or accomplished or awesome or smart I think I am at any given point. Give me a couple months, a couple weeks, even a couple days and I always look back on myself and it just strikes me how much I've changed, usually for the better. I look back at how I was before and think to myself: Dang I can't believe I thought I couldn't get any better at that point, I definitely shouldn't think like that anymore. But I can't help myself. And after a few days I always find myself thinking the exact same things.

Anyways now that I've said that for the 7th time, I'm a month or two into my junior year now, haven't had much time to blog but I think I'm gonna start putting time into doing this, it doesn't take too much effort and feels nice to get my thoughts out of my head. Anyways junior year. It's alot of work for sure. But it's also tons of fun. I honestly really like being challenged by all of the work and I love being an upperclassmen and having all the little underclassmen walk around me as opposed to having to move around big older kids. It's pretty sweet. I get to that class that much faster now. Shortest distance between two points is a straight line. I know it's alot of work but one of my biggest pet peeves is when people stress out so much. Ok maybe it's not really one of my pet peeves but i just don't get why people stress out so much. I mean yeah you could have 3 tests the next day, a presentation to prep for and other work to do and you could either just stay cool and get the work done or you could stress out and freak out and explode. I just don't feel like stressing out would help you at all. Cus it just adds that much added pressure on you and it makes it feel like your world is caving in. You feeling what i'm saying?

Ok, it's pretty late I should probably be getting to bed now. Just one last thing I wanted to reiterate that I wanted to remind myself and all y'all (whoever reads this haha I have no clue. let me know if you actually read this haha as silly as it sounds it makes me feel good and hecka encourages me to write more when people are like ya dude i read your blog. i mean if you hate it let me know too thats fine with me.) that the worst thing you could possibly ever do is be down on yourself. Life is definitely a struggle, and everyday we're survivors (yeee class 2012). but in all seriousness there are already so many challenges that we all have to overcome in life; and so much adversity that we will all have to face and defeat. People are gonna put you down and try to bring you down and the worst thing you could possibly do is get down on yourself too. Never do that to yourself. That's what other people are for. You don't let someone else bring you down and you DEFINITELY don't let you bring you down. Cus if you don't even believe in yourself, what makes you think that other people will? All I wanted to say really. Sorry. Could've made this a one sentance blog post. haha mahhh bad. Ok Until next time. Hopefully soon. You're all beautiful people. and I mean that. Talk about that next time.




btw. that didn't work out too well. lolz VV

Day 13: Someone I wish could forgive me

Dear __________,

I'm still lookin for you too. We'll see who fills this one

Sorry these are getting so boring. Hopefully I'll get one I have alot to say about soon

Day 12: Someone who I hate/caused me the most pain

No one yet. But I'll save some space for this one and write it when that person comes along

Day 11: Deceased person I wish I could talk to

Dear MJ,

I wish I could've gotten a chance to talk to you. To find out where you got your inspiration from. To find out how you were so innovative and how you basically had the world in the palm of your hand. Also to find out exactly what you were thinking when you went bad. The world was robbed when you died so early. You were a talent and a gift.

Day 10: Someone I don't talk to as much as I'd like to

Dear Ben Chung,

Dude. You're a brother to me. Even though we don't really talk that much, usually once a month during the school year and once a week this summer, and we don't really ever hang out haha, I always look forward to and enjoy talking to you. We can be freakin raw and honest with each other and I respect and admire you alot. I love how frank you are about everything and how no matter how much time passes between the times we talk it's never awkward when we start talking again. We laugh hella hard at funny things and we laugh hella hard at nothing at all hahaha. You're a good listener and you're always positive but you still always give your honest opinion. I feel like if we talked alot we'd be the best of friends and brothers but we got it goin good right now so why mess widdit.

Day 9: Someone I wish I could meet

Dear grandparents,
I wish I could have met any one of you. Is it fair that I never got the chance to have a relationship with a grandparent? Well I dunno, can't really miss what you never had right? I just wish I had a chance to meet one of you. Maybe you would've taught me life lessons that I'd pass down to my grandchildren. Maybe we'd hang out together, and we'd talk about things that I couldn't talk about with anyone else. I'll never know