Comeback

Ok I promise to myself and all of yall that from here on out I will blog at least once a week. When I was thinking about it I was thinking. Ok I'll promise myself every day. But I know that I wouldn't be able to keep that promise that to myself so I'm going for something reasonable. I'll just have to exceed my own expectations. What's been going on with me since the last time i blogged? A ton.


I'm a junior year now. Finally an upperclassman. I'm looking forward to all the word cus even though everyone says it's so much work and stressful and stuff, which I definitely believe, I'm looking forward to really being tested and stressed you know? Sounds strange but I feel like this will really show myself what kind of person I am. Do I run from my problems or do I stick with it and work hard to deal with them? We'll see. I also feel like this coming year is gonna help me define my true friends. Just a hunch. I've started doing SAT stuff cus my dad wants me to. Just printed out a list of 723 SAT words. The party's getting started. Memorized 20 hahaha only 703 to go. wooopeee.


Alot's changed with my perspective since the last time I wrote. Weird thing is everytime you write you act like you're super wise and super smart and know eveyrthing now. But then every time you write again a couple weeks later you're like oh wow my eyes have really been opened and I have this new perspective blah blah. Proves we're always learning and growing. I used to wish that I would be grown up and developed and sophisticated and smart and that would be the end of that. But I thought about it and yaknow how boring would it be to have nothing to strive for? Anyways I came back from a long trip in Miami and on a cruise to the Bahamas. This one night I was missssin my girl really badly so I spontaneously decided to text everybody on my contacts list with a significant other for the reasons of love/like. And to my surprise I got a bunch of replies, even from the ones I didn't know that well. It was pretty cool and inspiring and heart warming to see all the responses. I still have all of them on my phone, locked them. But reading all of them made me really happy cus I could completely relate to all of them.



The biggest thing that hit was that no matter how different we all are, we all love the same! (:. It was like that thing that was going on on facebook where people said nice things about each other when you liked their status only different because it was heartwarming all the same. It gets me wondering, when someone really asks. or actually. when someone's really tired haha. I feel like when you're really tired youre super open and willing to talk about things you dont normally talk about and i guess you're just too tired to put up a front and hide anything from anybody yaknow? But anyways when even from the most unlikely people you get this outpour of love when you just ask to talk about it. It's like finding 20 bucks in the back pocket of the jeans you just washed.