Recently a young man, a former SHS student and part of the music department family, passed away in his sleep. Imagine that. Just falling asleep and never waking up. It seems like this year is a lesson in mortality for me. When I was little, I used to think that me and everyone I knew was gonna live forever. Yeah, I'd hear on the news about how there were accidents and homicides and things like that, but it would never ever happen to people I knew, no, we were all gonna live forever. I'd spend my time making plans for when I grew up. I had to come up with tons and tons of fun and interesting things to do. Because hey, I was gonna live forever, and that meant once I became a millionaire, I was gonna have SO much free time!! And even as I've learned that you don't live forever, it hasn't actually hit me that people die.
If you think about it, we take sooo so much in life for granted. For those of us in the Bay Area, most of us are pretty dang well off. Maybe even spoiled. Like us Saratogans, we live in a very rich and safe city. Nothing bad happens here. But people complain about how it's so boring and they can't wait to get out. We just can't appreciate what we have unless it's taken away from us. The same goes for life itself. There have been billions and billions and billions, countless people that have lived before us. And billions and billions of people have died. Think about how much had to go right for you to get born. You parents had to be born and meet up out of all the people on Earth and their parents had to be born and meet up and the chances of you actually ever existing is miniscule to being with. But a majority of us still go through life making nothing of ourselves. And it's really disappointing. Such a great opportunity, maybe the greatest opportunity ever, gone to waste.
Death does not scare me anymore. I'm fine with dying. The scary part is being gone without getting a chance to tell everybody how much I love and appreciate them. So with that in mind, take time to let those important to you how much they mean to you and how you couldn't do without them. I know it sounds depressing, but you never know when you could go, so don't hold back.
Another thing about wasting your life. Recently I've heard about some friends of mine. Not going to name any names, but I've heard that they all get together and smoke. When I first heard about it, I didn't really believe it, but all I can really say is that I'm really disappointed in them. I've definitely lost a good amount of respect for them. I mean how can that ever turn out to be a good decision? You could say Oh, my friends wanted me to. If your so-called friend wanted you to suck up some powdered garbage and destroy your body, then they sure as hell aren't your friend. Has anyone ever said, Gosh, I'm SO glad I smoked in high school!! Nope. Never. It makes me really sad that people would waste their lives like for for maybe an hours satisfaction. It really doesn't make sense to me at all. Could someone who's an avid smoker pleeeease clarify that for me? Cus it doesn't make any sense. Whatsoever.
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